DeekshaI've been doing alot with Deeksha lately:
Receiving internet deekshas whenever I can, hands on from my Dad and Carrie, and invoking it on my own. It's very pleasant and deeksha coupled with positive imagery can be pretty damned powerful in manifestation.
An important part of deeksha is invoking the divine presence with the
Moola Mantra and the other day it became about as clear as a blow to the head that when done correctly, you don't necisarily have to
speak the mantra at all. This realization occured when I thought of the mantra and the first word, OM, resnonated like a sheet tearing inside my head. Great stuff that! So I tried to say each syllable that way, one after the other... and boy let me tell you it was tough. Each one was like lightning cracking and I would be flooded with so much bliss that it was hard to concentrate on the next word... I don't know if I ever made it all the way through without stopping or being interupted. In the end I was left with a silly grin on my face and so much bliss that I was kind of slow in reacting to anything else.
Since, I haven't had anything as powerful as that, but the tool is still there. I have since realized that I can map that resonante sphere that is the third eye on to any other point on, or out of, my body. So saying the moola mantra for every chakra in the body in a loop is pretty entertaining.
QigongAs an extension of above, I keep forgetting what an audio/tactile person I can be in energy work. One of the most powerful things for me is finding the resonances of things. (As a banal example of this kind of resonance: have you ever sat in the bathroom, started humming at the lowest note you could reach, and slowly moved the pitch up in a continous manner? Try it if you haven't. You'll find one note will be a bit, or alot, louder then the rest. It can help if there's a fan you can try and tone match. In such cases, I often find I can "feel" the whole bathroom resonanting off my chest.)
So anyways, I've discovered and rediscovered how much internal sub-vocalization can trigger energetic resonances in me. So, I need to investigate more methods of energy work or meditation involving sounds or special words/mantras. Hosh was telling me there are words associated with each of the Hsing-I fists. Have to look into that or it's equivilent in Ninjutsu when I get there.
Also, qigong is infinitely more useful when you are in situation that generates stress. School isn't really too stressful in general right now, but the way I approach it is. So I'll go through long periods of quiet and calm followed by short periods of lots of stress. This isn't the healthy way to go, but with qigong it's quite managable. It makes it really easy to identify what you need to heal and balence ;o)
Oh, and if anyone knows how to ground out a whole bus load of people coming to and from work, let me know. I've been experimenting with different methods and suggestions and have only had minor sucess. It really needs to happen though, people are STRESSED!
Martial ArtsFirst off, I need to spar with my friend Matthew more often. This isn't news, but I always rediscover this fact whenever I am fortunate enough to do push hands with him. He has been doing Taiji for a long, long time. So he has the capability for a metric shit-ton of chi and I'd bet you a dollar he doesn't realize it. Most of the time I think it's latent, or maybe I just don't notice it. But when he goes into MA mode it activates and BAM I'm sweating, moving more chi, more sensitive, and grounding more. It could also be that we have a good rapport -- likely based on the years that he has spent around Taiji masters and the years I have spent getting in rapport with everything. We are both very empathic.
Secondly, I need a Dao. Badly. It finally occured to me, after all these years, that the Dao is my most natural style. Chopping and slicing with the rounded end, all circular motions, one handed, etc, etc. The jian is great and I want to get alot better with it, but I find myself doing Dao movements with the tip all the time. The Katana is too linear for me. So I'm in the market for a Dao and my
standard shop isn't cutting it this time.